Here are the links to my previous postings for lessons 63 and 64 in A Course in Miracles:
Day 63: The light of the world brings peace to every mind through my forgiveness.
Day 64: Let me not forget my function.
Today I made the mistake of not meditating soon after I woke up. Marianne Williamson reminds us all the time during her Tuesday night lectures in Los Angeles that the mind is more open and less cluttered in the morning when we get up. This is the best time to meditate, as it will ground us spiritually before we move into our everyday stresses. Well, today I did not heed that advice. It wasn't for any particular reason. I thought, "I'll log into my email to see if there's anything pressing." That turned into an hour, then two. Then the repairmen came to fix a leak in my bathroom, so that wasn't a very convenient time to meditate. Then I had to eat lunch. Before I knew it, the day had taken me away.
By the time the afternoon rolled around and I was actually about to meditate, I got into a petty fight with my partner. I doubt this would have happened if I had started my day off in a heightened spiritual place. Without getting into specifics, I'll just say that my ego went into defense-mode. I got upset because, in trying to extend love toward him and the situation, he, at that time, was unable to receive it. At least that's what I perceived. Pretty soon I was playing the blame game, and what was at first a small misunderstanding had escalated into "I just can't stand it anymore!" My ego had obviously gotten the better of me. I realized then that I really could have used that morning meditation.
So, after my partner-suddenly-turned-enemy left to run some errands, I finally sat down to meditate. The light of the world brings peace to every mind through my forgiveness. Yesterday's lessons echoed throughout my mind: Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world. Okay, I'd definitely forgotten my function in the argument I'd just had. Appropriately so, today's review also covered the lesson Let me not forget my function. So the question I asked during my meditation was, "How?" How do I forgive? How do I do this so that I may fulfill my function, so that the light of the world can bring peace to every mind? We are all connected, so I know that if I can figure this out, we all can, and we all will.
Well, the answer I received was to not expect any reciprocation when offering love and forgiveness. This would defeat the point, for love and forgiveness is not an exchange. It's an action, freely given. It is revealing one's own light to another, so that they may recognize the light inside themselves. It is not our job to see the evidence of their recognition. Our love and light may have to cut through a thick layer of darkness before it can penetrate their light and radiate outward. Once love and forgiveness has been given, our job is done.
After my partner returned from running his errands, I apologized for lashing out. He understood that it was just my ego overreacting. He reflected the light I'd been shown in my meditation right back at me. All was forgiven. We had, through our forgiveness, brought peace to every mind. We had remembered our function in that moment.
The remainder of the day continued brightly. As today is Tuesday, we both attended Marianne Williamson's lecture in the evening. She was radiant, as always, and reaffirmed today's lessons in her own words: "I am only on this earth to be an instrument of Love." That applies to each and every one of us.
So let us all fill this world with the beautiful music and harmonious vibrations that only Love, Forgiveness and Joy can produce - and we will all see the earth light up before our very eyes.
Until tomorrow,
Journeyman
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